I feel, now isn't that surprising?

I feel in totality
Some things that bother me
I know I am never clear
Lets just push it off from here
And I can stop my self to see

I can stop my heart to bleed
I can stop myself to breath
But how do I stop my self to feel
Your not here I know
you’re over this
I know we’ll never hit
I am just a little strained
I can’t be myself again.

It s what we wanted it to be
But I know I am never clear
And I know I am always here
Standing like I just don’t care
Not that it’s always been bad
Not that I am always right
But we know it’s not like this
Coz you know I’ve always tried.

Never sure.

I am really never sure really I am just bored, really I am just ready to fight I am never really here, really I am just scared really I am j...