The emperors have opened the doors
Lets say things never said before
The dusk now is coming to a close
so this night is under suspicion

A different game and other plan
rest a little, know your hand
The game has its own span
but the players are never forgiven

Touch your soul, fly the earth
Heaven and hell never can come first
Own the sky and hit the dirt
This way is only a decision

Sense the clam and start a fight
Never stay on for the light
life here is not to be denied
it is but a chance we are given.

God-- Yes I am back.

I met a fellow, down the street
This little guy; calls himself god.
He knew all the theories and was sure
The truth he says can be taught.

He knew what I had to say,
He could gather my thoughts!
And he could tell for some reason
I was out caught

So he just smiled to me and said
No need to analyze
See I am God because
I can own you, with my smile.

And I was dumb stuck but still stammered
For I wanted him to explain,
He said don’t worry, don’t fight it
This life is just beautiful pain!

My reason.

I can not write anymore because:
1. Nobody really reads this anymore, including myself
2. The reason I don't read myself anymore is because I read things like:
jawaani be-khataa be-aib ho sakti to hai lekin
[Youth can be without Fault, without Vice]
yeh jeena bhi to khud jeene pe ik ilzaam hai saaqi
[But o 'Saqi, such life is a blame on life itself]
I don't think I can even think like this in my life time.
Standing further apart
The sadness becomes of her beauty
Boredom takes over much,
Maybe life is just her duty.

Sense no regret around her,
What I sense is that her way is wary.
She can’t stand meek
Will take her life further, and I will help her carry.

Her moments have challenged grace,
Her smile has burdened this race.
If she walks away from it all,
She will remain true, we shall raise the stake.

We might never stand to know
What have been the reasons that she can’t show.
She may look to pass her doubts
Her style however has over looked all that counts.
There it is, standing somewhere near about
Life is just an another doubt
There is no pain, no such lie
There is no way I can hide and ride

Something was up
Something went wrong
Something I could not find for it was gone
Somewhere you were safe
And I was right,
You are someone I won’t mind.

There was a smile and it was fine
A fire that we could never define
There is a way out of here
A way for us to know that no cares

Something did move
Someone did cry
Something we could just not pass on by
Something was there
For us to know
Somewhere I am sure we are meant to be called.

There was way and it was okay
It was only a matter of a certain day
There is no chance for a romance
There is however love and this tune to dance.
Hello little boy, tell me the truth
Do you really believe the dreams, which they give to you?
And do you think you will ever be free
And a soul with wonder and no worries

Hello, young man, do you know the times?
Do you think you can rush and be all right?
Do you think you have what it takes to make it through?
To all that they have promised to give to you

Hello old man, do you trust them
When they say heaven is only a matter of when?
Do you think, it would take God to really descend?
To save you from your life and what has happened.

Hello great soul, can you really tell
When they pray to take and pray to give
And do you really need anything?
And do think you deserve the blame for all there is.

She

A star her personal favorite,
Dimmed a little, went on to die.
Her fairies are drunk-intoxicated
She feeds them
but her innermost wishes,
Ones that they can neither comprehend
nor complete

Her beauty hides her ugliness
Her ugliness shadows her art
Her art covers her smile
Her simile waits for her to be free
Of this world, of regulation
And the world of her lies

Her safety has become her style
Contempt for her world, my creation
For long,
I have given her much pain
More suffering then I can ever imagine
And for that I am proud.

Zindgi!

Let’s make millions of dollar each
And buy things that are out of reach
Lets fly together little too high
To the space that sucks in the stars that shine

Let’s live in a high rise never build before
Let’s buy pictures worth a score
Let’s make a future for you and I
Let’s start it now for there is no time
Let’s focus on things that count
Money and fame must go round and round

Let’s stick to the falls and we will be right
Let’s be together when we have to rise.
Let’s spend so much that we won’t miss time
Let’s do vacations every fortnight
Let’s walk on beaches where the sand is pure white
Starry nights and clear blue sk

Let’s have a future where we won’t need each other
But will stick around for we would have some cover
Lets us shine and make life rich and fine
Let’s just live it but not call it, a compromise.

ग़म अगरचिह जां-गुसिल है पह कहां बचें कि दिल है
although grief is life-destroying, how would we escape, since/while there is a heart?
ग़म-ए `इशक़ अगर न होता ग़म-ए रोज़गार होता
if it were not the grief of passion, it would be the grief of livelihood
- Mirza Ghalib

Something I wrote ages back

People walk in this holy world of trust

 They pray to please him like he is one of us 

They think he can be fooled by singing hymns 

And making a fuss 

 They think he can be ruled 

By buildings and offering golden dust 

People are killed in the name of god, 

Massacres are done for a holy cause.

 When and where did he not advocate love?

 When did he tell you to give humanity up? 

 Orphans, widows, helpless wives 

No one cares, what will be their life? 

How will they survive in these times? 

How can we ever make anything for them right? 

These questions are steep enough, 

For even he is quite, 

What is he doing?

 Can’t he stop these riots? 

Can’ we stop it all and 

Not give him the blame 

When will we know him as, 

God in his true name? 

 ज़िनदगी अपनी जब इस शकल से गुज़री ग़ालिब 

Life has passed us in such shape ‘Ghalib’ 

हम भी कया याद करेंगे कि ख़ुदा रखते थे W

hat will we remember, we had kept a God!? Mirza Ghalib

I promised I would never put this up.

I seem to be my self
Every time I have felt
The pain, as you leave my side
I shall ease to be in pain
Coz I will never say
It’s meant to be this way
I will not know you all my life. 

 I’ll never be the same
All that we can blame
All these ways of fate
I will hate you – I will lie

Tears are meant to controlled
I will not be told
Found you, lost my soul
To see you, I shall dream tonight

It’s all that we can’t see
All that you can’t be
Somewhere deep in me l
I will live on, I have died
We always knew the end
But we always could pretend
Never could just stand
To what was real, what was right

And we shall never know
What it’s meant to grow
And be together
Our final words were not good bye
Truth is that I have spoken not,
And that, may have never pleased you
I don’t want you much now,
Now I need to forget that I need you.

Close to me, up close I’ve seen it
How life has so much to feed you
Please know for all that has been worth it
I may give you up but I would always preach you

Fear may have ruled wholesome
And I’ve only seemed to learn how not to keep you
I can only try to keep the best for me
And there is only one way, where I can lead you

I can sense you when you are furthest away
And in a way I know, I can’t reach you
Chains of fate is only a play of words and name,
My bondage is, that I have freed you.
It’s only a matter of some time that I move on,
Let me just bask in this misery that I call my own.
Only a matter of time there is no pain
And then I can sit there and don’t play any hand

It’s only a matter of time and I can feel not a thing
Let me not relax until and feel you in
Only a matter of time there can be no you
Let me just stand here and let me be the fool

I am only the one I know that can feel like this
But only coz I don’t many that don’t like to fit
I am the one that can sit and waste my time
Only coz I believe in promises made up with your lies

Not that it easy and not that easy is not how we like,
Maybe I will never get over and maybe I will smile
Some time wonder what it is that really troubles more
Fact that I show around or that I under score

Maybe it’s only right that I am not called out right
Maybe I am never wanted, maybe that’s my life
Somehow it’s only been matter of some time
Maybe this pain is all I have to hold on tight
Don’t bother me, just not today
I have to break my promises
Don’t look at me; I can’t explain
My only freedom is my sole blame

Don’t look for me; I won’t be found
Don’t come too close; I am not so sound
Don’t feel for me; I am sure it’s sincere
I am simply scared, that I won't care

Don't treat me right, not all the time?
I must know myself, left to on own device
Don’t have it heard, not that I can hear
I will try to hide; you know I am still near.

Don’t you realize; I am just not right? 
I must feel good; it’s the only choice
Don’t make it simple complex is fine
It can’t be easy if love is divine.

My words.

My friend my enemy
My love my hate,
My deepest fear, my greatest joy,
You are my one escape

My soul my salvation,
You never were what I would take.
The least known, the most close,
Here I am just some mistake.

My satisfaction, my greed,
The sole survivor of our fate
My within, My without
Wherever you are, you are far away

A perfect score, the worst result,
A simple game, we could not play.
In grief of this movement,
We can be who we are.
You can be so clear
And yet be so far.

I have to mind you,
I have to halt.
And in a way,
You and I are just a start.

Wonder down the darkness,
I know I can find you in the light.
And I can not define you,
But you know that I had to try.

Good and bad we leave behind,
Good that we are not alright.

Now I can’t see you,
And I can’t be fine.
Have to let you go,
Because you can’t be denied

Helped my self,
For I need to help them all,
Make my day,
Let me hear your call.

Push was a start,
But we knew it won’t get far.
God could have been against me,
But I knew was devil was for.

Was I!

Once I was just a child, No war, no loss, not much to hide, Once I was innocent, Didn’t think life would ever end. Once I was a prefect soul, Never had known-had never fouled. Once I knew what love meant, Once I never needed to pretend. Once I was a free spirit, Candies were life’s inheritance, Once there was just me and the thunder, Once I used to really wonder. Once I actually saw those colors, Once I thought life was for others. Once I was what I wanted to be, Once I really was free.

Never sure.

I am really never sure really I am just bored, really I am just ready to fight I am never really here, really I am just scared really I am j...